Not many, but it seems people still come around here from time to time. It’s a little weird actually, because I don’t even actually know why I know that. I haven’t felt any compulsion to write anything lately, but I still look at the viewer stats on here from time to time. I have to imagine that is the small part of me that wants to come back to this with more regularity. The part of me that is actually writing this down now. It’s tough actually because writing in this space doesn’t really feel as fun as it was. But maybe I am just looking at it with some sort of rose-colored glasses. Maybe it was never fun. Maybe I just felt like I had to write my thoughts about video games. That’s a little weird to consider, because I was really never able to pin this whole writing regularly thing down in the first place. But the feeling that I should write something would kind of bubble up in my brain from time to time, and eventually I would be able to pull myself away from whatever it was I was doing and write something passable.
I really have no idea what keeps me coming back here, looking at the stats, wondering what I could and should do in order to make something respectable of this. I know a lot of the things I should be doing. It boils down to a lot more than I ever was, even was I was most prolific with content.
I should have always done more. More writing, do video, audio stuff. Learn how to be better. Don’t take this digital age we’re living in, this amazing age of easy to learn video and streaming, and piss it away on only doing sporadic writing. Writing nothing in comparison actually seems more fair to whatever fledgling audience I had; instead of keeping this non-schedule, and just hoping the people would be there when I decided to come back. That’s not fair to anyone, including myself. If I want to do this, and a definite part of me wants to, I need to go into it wanting to get better, wanting to expand my own breadth of content. That is really the only choice if I want to increase the reach and voice of my content.
For that, I need to make a commitment to myself and this space. I don’t want to say I am super gung-ho about this idea, and then go nuts with new content, and burning out the second it seems too hard. I do want to see if I have it in me though to be better at this. Again, I don’t know what keeps me coming back here, but I find myself wanting to. I miss this, I miss writing, and I feel like I owe it to myself to follow through on what this should be.
To that end, I will be back to writing for this blog, I will ease into it being a regular thing again. Right now my goal is one larger thing a week, and sporadic smaller news topics throughout. Let’s be honest, the more short, popular things I write about, the more people will come to the site. Just writing 2000 words about how I love Crash N’ the Boys Street Challenge probably won’t bring people here. I want them to read that stuff when I put it up, but writing blurbs about Pokemon, and doing lists will get them here in the first place.
Video games may not be the only thing I write about from here on out. I have interests outside of the vidja games, and they may find a place in this blog as well. If nothing else, it will increase the chance content can stay regular, as I play games most days, but not always every day.
Also, video stuff. This is something I need to get to doing. Writing alone is a sucker’s bet in this day, and frankly I have always been interested in things like Twitch. So to that end I plan on doing streams of me playing some dumb-ass stuff. I don’t find myself lately keeping up with all the newest stuff, but I have a huge Steam backlog that is filled with silly shit. Also I want to record some stuff that will be put up on this blog in a more permanent format. Maybe use Youtube for a while, and perhaps get my own video player to avoid the crap that comes with takedowns. I have to work out some sort of timetable for this, figure out when I can stream regularly. This will take a bit longer to get together, because I have no experience with this, but I will try to learn quickly.
If this video stuff comes together quickly, the viewer will probably notice I will be trying to do a wide swath of games, seemingly at random. Giant Bomb’s Encyclopedia Bombastica fascinates me, as both a vehicle to show games that wouldn’t get press elsewhere, as well as develop the streamer as a personality worth watching. I don’t mind admitting that what I am going for will at best be a poor facsimile of that.
While all this happens, I want to try learning more about what lies under the hood of this blog. Some basic coding stuff, as really that can only help. I have books, and free resources out there to do this, it is just a matter of me applying myself.
I have absolutely no idea where it all leads, but to anyone coming along with me, thanks. I will try to make something worth coming to. I want my life to be actually busy, but filled with the things I want to do. Hopefully that desire will bear fruit.