I haven’t been writing lately. Hell I really haven’t been playing many video games. Things started to happen for me that were in no way expected leading up to taking the LSAT’s and immediately after. Good things, nothing bad. In some cases, extremely good. Now that I am here though, settling into how things are changing, with other things fitting into my life, I look at this blog. It isn’t that I haven’t had time to play video games, I just haven’t been. However, that is going to change again. I think I needed that break to cleanse the palette, which is allowing me to come back to my favorite past time with a renewed vigor. With me wanting playing video games again, I decided I had to sit down and think about if I still want to talk about them on this blog. For a while honestly I was not sure. I do really like writing, it just never seemed it would lead anywhere, nor does it still at this point. It is a hobby, and I accept that. But I needed to really think and figure out who am I really doing this for?
Writing on the internet, as a hobby is really about putting yourself out there. Paychecks are not there, it is really for the love of whatever it is you’re doing, and writing about. I don’t have many people reading this, and I don’t suspect I ever will, and I need to be okay with that. Also, I have no one else doing this with me. Content for this blog is generated entirely by me, when I can write, and have the will to do so. So I need to accept that I cannot constantly be putting up new content like professional outlets. My blog needs to be a reflection of both my personality as well as the quality of content I create. That is the last thing I need to accept. I should never throw out content that I cannot consider the best I can do. I should not write something for the simple purpose of writing something.
With all of this in mind, I have been wracking my brain trying to figure out what is next. I have been able to answer all these questions, and satisfy these quandaries, and as a result, I think I know what I am going to be doing with this blog. I still plan on writing about video games. I love them too much, and I love writing too much to not. Content wise, I really would love to make a schedule for that, but for right now I just need to accept it is gonna happen whenever I can. That is not to say it will be less. I read a lot of short news stuff that I thoughts on and such, so I was thinking maybe I can talk about that stuff more. Not everything needs to be 2200 words about Assassin’s Creed. Also, I realized this is my blog, so I don’t need to talk about just video games all the time; and hell I probably shouldn’t be. To that end, I want to start talking about TV shows and movies I see as well, maybe start doing reviews of episodes, using the same 1-5 scale I use for video games.
This is all a continuous work in progress as I settle into a life that is about a lot more than self-destructive crap, and actual improvement. While I have taken on new things however, and have dismissed the bad, I know my love for video games were not one of those bad things. Neither was writing about them. So I want to keep doing this, no matter who reads it.